But beyond my love for that movie and at the risk of sounding like an absolute moron, I've thought about a certain part in that movie more than once in the last two weeks. (I wasn't going to go through all of this, but I decided to explain my love for the movie in case someone came up to me later telling me that my thoughts resembled a movie they had seen). Anyway, living here has been tough. Being away from the people that I love and the places that I know is not necessarily something that I wanted to happen. I never saw myself leaving. But I did. And in the past couple of weeks being away has become increasingly difficult. So, here is where the movie comes in. There is a part in that movie after Meg Ryan has lost her business and she's saying how people always tell you that change is a good thing, but all they are really saying is that something you didn't want to happen happened and there's really nothing you can do about it. And then she says this, "The truth is, I'm heartbroken." (Man, I'm really setting myself up to look like a big cheeseball). But the truth is that I have been heartbroken. There have been days, maybe weeks where all I want to do is go back home. When I think about all the people in Nampa that know me. That miss me. It makes living in Kansas seem so pointless. Why live in place where no one cares who I am?
Unfortunately, this story doesn't really have an incredible epiphany at the end. We did get the chance to visit home a week ago, however, and loved every second of it. It was wonderful seeing everyone. And hard to leave them behind. BUT there is hope. I have to believe that God would never send us to a place and not provide any sort of connection to the wonderful people who I'm sure live somewhere in this state. So we're going to wait patiently and openly for some really great friends and keep repeating this from Romans, "May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit."
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Good grief, if I didn't know better, I'd say we were the same person! I know EXACTLY what you mean. I watched You've Got Mail over and over when I first moved here because it's my favorite and because I didn't have cable for a long time. I remember how lonely and pointless it all felt at the beginning. Sometimes while Trevor was at work, I would just wander around the mall or the Opryland Hotel just to be around people. It was hard never recognizing a face. But it has gotten easier. And now, three years later, it makes me a little bit sad to think about leaving the people I love here in Nashville someday. Don't get me wrong, I would love to live near all my friends in Nampa again very soon...but for now I'm really alright here. It does get better, more familiar, and less lonely. Hang in there, okay? Who knows what kind of blessings you'll receive because you trusted the Lord and obeyed His calling.
I watch this movie like, 8 times a year. My copy is almost ruined.
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